Friday, July 3, 2009

When I Needed You... (click here)

You know sometimes I feel if my brother would face the facts and apologize for some of his ways and actions towards his family (his sisters) - maybe his life would be a little better. Without all the conflicts and emotional heartaches he challenges from day to day. I love this man with all my heart and yet he denies me even as a sister! Well, I remember most of the poems I wrote when I had to be Moms' care giver and he never helped and I am now bitter as I was then. He pretended all was well the day we buried Mama and stabbed me in the heart again for the last time! It will take a lot for me to try and forgive, but I can't promise anything - I may get Alzheimer's and forget - yet my feelings are written and saved. God bless anyone who has a family member that can actually ride all around you, walk right next time to you and not even acknowledge you...God forbid this happens to you!!!!

A Housecoat for Mom!

As we celebrated Mom on Mothers` Day
A gift from her son in a fashioned way
Mom’s not able to open presents now
It`s sad to know she doesn`t know how
If she really knew who her present was from
She`d say, "oh, it`s a housecoat for Mom!"
If you`d only come to see her now and then
You would know the kind of gifts to send
Mom doesn`t wear housecoats anymore
She needs something warm as she paces the floor
If you only knew of the things she could use
There`s a lot of gifts you could choose
We celebrate another day for bearing presents
With her soft warm smile and thoughts so pleasant
She`ll be looking for your gift and who it`s from
Knowing it`s always "a housecoat for mom!"

Sylvia Allison
5-11-98

You May Run But You Can`t Hide

Someday you may wake up and easily find
You have forgotten you`re losing your mind
Someone was here for you with arms open wide
You may run but you can`t hide.
You’ll be sorry you left us and I’m sure you will
For one day you may find your world standing still
Your mom raised you and stood by your side
You may run but you can`t hide.
In years to come you’ll see you were wrong
That your mom just needed to belong
Never let you down although she cried
You may run but you can’t hide.
So think of it brother you are her son
She just wanted to love you and needed someone
She may have forgotten but Mom had her pride
You may run but you can`t hide.

~Sylvia Allison
9/10/98



It’s Too Late Now

After watching mama suffering so
Many places she could go
Sisters shared the caregiving somehow
Why dear brother, it’s too late now.
You sat back while we all worried
In our daily lives being rushed and hurried
Never cared if we wiped a brow
Sorry dear brother, it’s too late now.
The time has come for mama to leave my home
So many times I felt alone
Now you come in and want to take a bow
Think dear brother, it’s too late now.
One day you may think about this and see
What your ignoring did to me
You’ll stand outside that Pearly Gate
Think dear brother, before it’s too late.

~Sylvia Allison
9/26/98